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To War

March 29, 2007

This stone is taken to my head to crack it,
The way it blasts the land and splits the loam
Between hard hands. A song and solid moan
Announce the woe among the solid pits of panic.

This was a child: his love and chastity betrayed
With cold and writhing feet, itching scratches
At his face, inane mechanic whims and dead patches
Of mettled, muddy earth perfumed with a tired tirade.

No man could put back together these scraps of rust,
The wheels of ridged politics concerning fixed ideals.
The Manor of Religion, acres, the salted earth – are meals
For starving diplomats and suited men with coats of dust.

The idiot man will sit up and scream
To call the hour in irrational thirteens.

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Life changing

March 12, 2007

I’ve made some very significant life changing decisions recently. I suppose it is what happens when you reach the age I am, you start moulding your future for yourself. It’s no longer sorted for me by my school or my mum. It’s like I’ve come of age and am now allowed to decide my own future and steer its direction.

I suppose it all started towards the end of last year when I laid out plans for university and the subject I would study knowing that it would affect me for the rest of my life. That was the first major decision.

The second major decision also came towards the end of last year. I found the lovely Mr. Richards. I felt ready and able to commit to a relationship that would continue far beyond the confines of my immediate life.

It’s just a very odd thought to think that in the space of a year i’ve gone from being someone without a plan and clueless about my future and turned in to someone that feels completely secure in his relationship and has the framework set in place for a hopefully stimulating and propsperous (no, not in that sense) career.

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Short

February 26, 2007

I liked being short. I would sit
On my daddy’s knee and he’d
Bounce me. The stairs were

Vast mountains and I was there
To climb them. My mummy
Would tuck me in every night

After I had struggled into my
Train engine pyjamas. The TV
Would entertain me. I could go

To Andrews house whenever I
Wanted to without ringing up.
We would play in the garden.

My nanny would sing me songs
From Slovakia and I would try
To sing them back to her. I

Would work and laugh at the
Same time. The playground had
Worms in it. And things were big.

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Stealing

February 24, 2007

I found a penny.
It was sitting down so
I painted its picture.
I took the penny to my room.

I threw open the curtains
And the sun said Ah!
Sometimes i put it in my pocket
And take it away.

We go and see things.
I check it is safe.
It sparkles and croons.
My shiny penny.

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Prayer to a Cheerless God

February 22, 2007

O lord of light!
Great butcher of skies!
Conspirator!
Extractor fan!
You have such enormous fingers!